Tomorrow I board a bus to go to Basic Combat Training for the US Army. Never thought I’d see myself joining the military either. I was pretty excited when I first signed up and I was ready and good to go, but as some of you know I met a few and experienced a lot throughout DEP. It has been an awesome 6 months of waiting. It had ups and downs but hey I was glad it happened.
As for how I’m ending DEP, I couldn’t ask for a better day. I went to lunch with someone today. Probably the most amusing lunch with someone I’ve had in a while. Sadly enough, I never got to tell her what I really wanted to tell her. She’s one of those girls that I felt something for but I hid it because I didn’t really feel confident enough to admit it. Earlier last year when we first really got to know each other, I can already tell that I would like her company. She somewhat has that vibe in her that just automatically makes you happy when you hear her talk. I am amazed at her unique and positive view on life and I know that I wouldn’t even be able to become any of it. I just hope that she chose her friends better and learned to fight for herself. I couldn’t stand the assholes and bitches that always dragged her down because she deserves way better. It was one of those things I regret not telling her that I liked her (might still do, idk) before just to see where it would take me. Oh well. I really do hope that she’s happy and making the best decisions.
I also got in touch with someone back in my home country. I don’t really know what to say since it’s almost 4 years since we’ve really said something to each other. But 4 years ago, she was pretty much my highschool “crush”/”love” whatever you want to call it. It was funny and awkward back then when we were still young. She has taught me a lot about life and basically made my personality prior to moving to the US. I do admit that I miss those days. It was when there’s just fun and no worries about anything. It’s stupid teenager fun that had no price. But missing those days, I realize that I still miss the person the most. Oddly enough, I moved to the US and 4 years has passed and things have changed… I have changed but I still feel some care for her. I still feel some care and some “I miss you” type of deal. She still makes me smile, still makes me laugh, and she still makes me think of how happy things are. I’ve never heard her voice for 4 years but there’s still that image of her talking and laughing with me. Her smile still makes me instantly happy, even though you have braces now (I just think that makes it cute :D). I never thought that I missed someone this bad. I miss her so bad. If there’s only a chance that we’d get to see each other again. Maybe. :)
For the rest of my friends, there were always there for me. The whole time I can’t be any happier with all of my friends. They have never failed to support and walk with me through anything. And they gave me one hell of a farewell party, I never saw myself smile brighter than that night. All of them have told me that they really expect a changed me when I get back, I do expect a change in me too. I could never see myself living any other lifestyle than the military anymore. It made me think why I waited for a year to do it, but whatever I’m going tomorrow so bring it on. A new start to a new year, a new start to a brand new life. I’ll see you guys in 9-10 weeks. :D
Posted On: Mon, Jan. 16, 2012
